Maturity from 20 year old me

Old post - just posted!
I believe in maturity...but does that mean I'm saying that I'm mature? That is a question which i ask myself everyday...(refer to tears). However just because i cry, does it make me immature? Does maturity mean keeping your emotions to yourself or does it mean having no emotions at all? Won't that make me either repressed on the one hand and a tyrant on the other? Would it make me mature if I could answer the above questions?
There are two parts to my life...rather two aspects of my personality...yesterday i discovered there is a third...there's the public face...mature...the private face....immature and the bathroom face...wet...ok...sorry sad joke...the third face is the one which i call the "falsely brave face" Sometimes its strangely mature...like when I am able to rationalise the fact that life has to be lived alone and i shouldn't have any expectations from anyone...and usually its plain silly...i get hurt and i get hurt for things which shouldnt matter at all...i'm blabbering...i have to remember this blog is not my diary...
There is a certain relative who is considered by all to be "the queen of immaturity" We laugh at all her antics...things like hanging her bag in her host's bathroom and then while coming out, looking at it and wondering why the bag looked so darned familiar...exclaiming to a friend that she had seen her husband in the market the other day and (surprise surprise), he had been wearing "pant shirt." I have always laughed at this rather elderly lady's exploits...especially at the fact that she is foolish enough to say this to everyone who would care to listen herself...why would anyone humiliate themselves infront of everyone in this fashion. If this isnt immaturity then what is? Is it immaturity then? The more I thought I about it the more I came to the conclusion that this was a kind of "maturity" which most of the so-called mature people don't possess...this is the maturity not to take oneself too seriously...you might argue that this is only prompted by her immaturity...i probably cant convince you...this is after all just my point of view...isn't it maturity also to respect other people's point of view?

tears

notice the url of this blog...specifically...notice the second word...wimp...so i know all about tears and those bloody tear glands which have emotions of their own...there's a bright side though: They only operate when in contact with certain people and certain instances...but then lets not waver from the main topic...we are talking about tears and crying...
What is so wrong with crying? Maybe i'm being partial...i cry so i think it's ok...but you're wrong there, i hate crying...i feel weird when i do...outa control kinds...you must be thinking why i'm going on and on about it...simple...cuz i cry too much. i cry everywhere: restaurants, sharma, udipi, weddings(not for the dulhan...i might have if i knew who she was), home steps, college steps,...i'm sure you get the rather watery picture...so i have a right to obsess don't you think?
why do i feel crying is wrong? is it a societal or a personal pressure to hate crying? what exactly is crying anyways?
The last question is the easiest...there is a biological understanding of crying...actually tears.
A tear is a salty, protein-rich fluid emanating from my lacrimal apparatus. To make it cryin, add to it improvised adjustments in the muscles of facial expression, a few non-specific and incomprehensible vocalisations, and convulsively inhaling and exhaling air with spasms of the respiratory and truncal muscle groups. That, scienifically and technically speaking is Crying...oof..i didnt know it was so complicated especially when i seem to do it without any effort at all.
There is this article i found which mentions the following statistic generated from a study(dont ask me the reliability or the methodology for the study...i dont know and i dont care): women cry 64 times a year, on average, and men 17.
Two points come to my mind when i look at this:
1) I cry two times a day which makes it like approx 730 times a yr which is way way wayyyy above the average...question: Is there somethig wrong with me? Conclusion: There is definitely somehing wrong with me!!!
2) Boys don't cry...thats a movie which starred a girl (Hilary Swank to be precise) as a boy who didnt cry...but do boys actually not cry...i can give u loadsa shit about buys being emotional and crying more than women but whats the use...truth is you cant generalise...most men i know dont cry too much...they just get MAD!!!
Next Related Post, Coming up soon: DO WOMEN CRY TO MANIPULATE???

uno

I always name my first posts in every new blog i create as uno...and i never move beyond the first post...so maybe this was a mistake...maybe i shudnt have named the first one this time as uno...on the other hand...maybe this time i'll be lucky...anyways let me for once stop obsessing about me... and not write about ME in the first post...lets choose the most hackneyed yet popular(question: whats the difference between hackneyed and popular?) topic of the moment...the Cricket World Cup...more specifically...India at the Cricket World Cup...
Now don't get me wrong...i'm a "typical" girl as they say...i HATE cricket...however i believe in information...so i know about it even though i hate it...however i don't feel i'm entitled to rubbish the game just cuz i don't like it (notice the url at the top of the page)...so i am just talking about something slightly different...advertisements
There is something i read in some newspaper (hey, not my fault we get like three newspapers at home on sundays) {i dunno why people always refer to newspapers?} about the new pepsi ad...for those afflicted with cable problems as some of my dear friends are...this is one where sachin takes a bottle of pepsi and as he is about to pass it on to his teammates, its grabbed by "chengras" (for want of a better word) who are then pursued by team india (ugh). They eventually reach a place which is definitely a railway station (why?) where a huge crowd has gathered. they all then reveal themselves to be wearing the BLUE tshirts (i call it pepsi blue though the Indian cricket jersey came before the failed drink) called rather incorrectly the "Blue Billion." And the last shot is of tigers leaving the cricket pitch...tigers supposed to be "team India."
Now the article commented on the sentiments that this "striking" ad(im not too sure about the striking part though yeah, the music reminds me of the kabaddi chant) evokes or rather might evoke. It says that it shows the cricketers like Dhoni and Sehwag being bullied and is rather weird in that regard. maybe...but there are two things which i found noteworthy:
1) Pepsi as in the product itself was relegated to the background...true it started with them running for their "precious" Pepsi but it got lost from the crowd somewhere in the middle other than the customary swig at the end...now except for the consumer perspective, i really don't know anything about ad-making...but i feel this actually works in an odd way...i might not be induced to straightway grab a bottle but i do remember whose ad it was at least...
2) I seriously did not understand why they had to show a railway station...if it was that...what possible significance could that have?
Another ad that i remember was Dravid endorsing Sansui...i have no idea about Sansui and its reputation...but my Dad tells me that it isnt one of the best brands when it comes to goods like Tvs etc...in the ad Dravid is recounting the similarities between the Indian Cricket team and Sansui...i was convinced...especially when he talked about the similarity in the reliability of both of them...yeah, i said, both were identical...unreliable...
For my part, i believe in ads...i believe in them more than the other things shown on tv....i sometimes switch channels just to see ads...So what strikes me most is the fact that these ads are gonna be like salt on an open wound once (ok, for fans...if) India is out of the reckoning in the World Cup...i'm guessing they will be withdrawn...hoping so actually...and aired again during the nexy major cricketing event...for me though it makes no difference...for me these are just ads...and the cricketers just another celebrity shooting for the ads...they probably spend as much time in front of the camera as in front of the nets anyways....
Adios for today...lets keep the introductions for another post...